The smoke alarm isn't working...

The smell of smoke, the crisp breeze, and the beaming sun heightened my senses as I took my usual morning stroll through downtown to begin my day as a working woman.
Last week's event was something of a common occurrence in these neck of the woods. Concern and panic filled the air as thick and suffocating as the smoke. I remained calm; apathetic if you will.
The one person I wanted to call during the commotion of the smoke and fire was the one person I could no longer count on.
It's a funny thing having someone change your life.
They come in unannounced and completely turn your world inside out back to front upside down into something you've never even comprehended.
True love.
At least that's what you thought.
You wonder how you ever lived without them before they came along.
They take hold of your heart, make you feel good for a while, then real life sets in and things change.
Shoulda seen it coming from the start.
I don't regret it though... Falling in love.
I still care and always will.
Fighting to stay afloat is exhausting but drowning is not an option.
The chapter ends to this overly cliched and excruciatingly painful heart stomping fest.
It's been swell. It really has.
My words ooze with sarcasm and wit like you wouldn't believe.
There's more to life than love that hurts too much to love back.

Daisies Never Lie...

He loves me...

Does this make the situation ironic?

Perhaps.

...Well life is a little complicated at the moment but I'm trying to figure it out.

"I never said it was going to be easy, I only said it was going to worth it"

Down But Not Defeated

 Remember the post Heart and Soul I talked about my determination to keep head strong in moving forward in my life?Well I've a few set backs that are making my heart ache. I just wanted to acknowledge to myself that it's okay to have a couple of bad days, it's okay to stand up for what you believe in even if a person you love is not willing to change, it's okay to miss someone so much it hurts, and it's okay to cry. One of my good  friends said it's important to not dwell on the things that are troubling me. Consider this me getting my worries off my chest and letting go...again.

I'm not giving up, I'm not giving in. I'm tired of losing, from now on I'm gunna win. ~ moi 

A few set backs are okay, it's what you do afterwards that counts. Are you going to let your set backs defeat  you or are you gunna get back up and try again?

The choice is yours!  

 

I randomly found this list. There are some things I would never do because it either goes against what I believe or it is just plain stupid!

Check out the ones I've done and see which ones you have done or would love to do!

150 things to do before you turn 30

The things I've already done!
The things that I'm dying to do!

01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink (umm nope)
02. Swam with dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain (does bear's hump count??)
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said “I love you” and meant it (only said it to close friends and family..)
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby’s diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Wished on a shooting star
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run (never gunna happen)
36. Danced like a fool and didn’t care who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states (this would be cool but I would rather visit other places in the world)
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Taken a midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain (wasn't the best experience but not because of the rain...)
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theatre
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class (only from the old pops)
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party ( I kinda did but it wasn't a big deal)
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch (they weren't that great...)
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo (does a fake one count?)
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on a television news program as an “expert”
83. Gotten flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
98. Passed out cold
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking with the windows open
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone’s heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a TV game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears (my lip...I won't do it though...)
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for 30 hours in a 48 hour period
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. States
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad and The Odyssey
135. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Save someone's life (not yet)

Got any more to add?

What's something that you've been dying to do?

I've got 9 years left to get most of these done so I better get crackin'

Christmas Holidays Here I Come!

I'm almost done my last semester of university, just a week left of torture school then it's over!!! Procrastination accompanied with my inability to say no to people has resulted in me stressing out these past few weeks needing to finish my assignments. I made it through last week where I had a presentation, and 2 papers due one day after another. And now I only have a few assignments left so it's more manageable. I am so close to becoming a registered nurse it's unreal!
I'm looking forward to the Christmas break for several reasons:

1. I get to catch up on my knitting. I've made promises to several people and I need to get cracking.
2. I love watching Christmas movies!!! Looking forward to Elf, Home Alone, Jingle All The Way, How the Grinch Stole Christmas and many others :)
3. The Christmas Spirit makes everyone so happy and giving! It's great!
4. I get to drink hot chocolate and read by the fire place at my parent's house.
5. I have more time to spend with the family.
6. I can do Christmas baking with mum!
7. I love getting Christmas presents!
8. I will go sledding...probably only once because I'm not a huge fan of the cold
9. I'm going Christmas carolling twice this week!!
10. It's the time of the year to celebrate the birth of the Saviour. Without the Saviour and His Atonement we will not have the gift of the resurrection or the opportunity to gain eternal life in the presence of Heavenly Father if we keep the commandments.

Please take a least a moment this Christmas season to appreciate the Saviour and His willingness to come into the world and take upon Him the sins and afflictions of the world.

Remember the Christ in Christmas.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Heart and Soul...

There's been a lot of change in my life this past year and especially in the last couple of months. Change is needed though not always wanted. BUT it is necessary for growth.
I received an email that spoke to me from The Brave Girls Club so I'm going to share the email with you here...

Dear Devoted Girl,
Letting go of things that you have outgrown is painful and often brings on the same kind of grief that a death would cause in your life. Just because something feels painful, uncomfortable and awkward, it doesn't mean you made the wrong decision. ALWAYS go back to the point where you made a difficult decision, and remember the peace you felt when you knew it was the right choice. The most important decisions ofter included a great deal of sacrifice, which means you are giving up something good for something that is best for your life.
Often we have to grieve over the good thing that we had to give up to be able to get to the best thing. It will pass.
One way to make yourself very sad and miserable is to keep trying to keep the tip of a toe in the "good" old life, while trying to move forward into the "best" new life. Turn your whole body to where it needs to be and let yourself be there, heart and soul. Let the old stuff go that is not helping you to be your very best self, which in turn helps you to serve in your life in the very best way, and enjoy your life in the very way, and live your life in the very best way.
Let yourself grieve if you need to grieve, then let yourself move on.
It is time.
You are so very loved.
xoxo

It's time for me to move on "heart and soul".
I've made a plan, and I'm sticking to it.
I deserve my best life and to become my best self, and so do you.
Dream, Believe, then Do!
Have a great week!

21 and Invincible

There's one day a year a person can be self centred and pretty much 'high' on themself and no one can say otherwise.

You've guessed it...

Birthdays

 

Some of my friends may say I get too excited for my birthday but I attest that there is nothing wrong with being excited about a day filled with presents, party food, and attention!

 

Besides I turned 21 and apparently it's a HUGE milestone. The beginning of the end or just the beginning... depends which day you see me on.

 

Things I have to look forward to now that I'm 21...

• I am legal in all countries.
• I can drink in the States...not that I have a desire to...
• I am an official adult!
• I will be a Registered Nurse in less than a year!!!
• Another year to love, laugh and learn

 I've been wait for so long to sing this song on my birthday, so here it is for y'all!!!